Happy Belated New Year

Whoa am I ever so late. I hadn't written in a while, busy "dating" the guy from the party for skinny girls. Turns out I was in a relationship for the past 2.5 months and didn't realize it until we broke up. How is that for irony. The sex was great we have similar interest but boy oh boy did he smoke a lot of weed. I have never been into drugs and most likely never will be because of my career but I had no idea there was a culture of people who have jobs and still do drugs. Functional drug addicts. He asked me not to chronicle our "relationship" when we were together but since that is over, I can say whatever the fuck I want.
Well I tried anal, no need to beat around the bush but the pothead got me to try something I thought I would never do until after popping out a few kids. I always figured my pussy didn't have that many miles on it so I wasn't going to let any ships dock at that port until I got a good run out the first one. I guess I always associated men wanting anal because the gina was too loose but it isn't always the case. Anal is the new oral these days, when I was in highschool getting blown was a treat, if you got your balls wet you were the man. Now adays girls hand out head like candy and anal establishes player status. Well I sure as hell didn't get that memo. I had just in recent years mastered the art of giving head and now the rug has been pulled out from under me. Men want anal! Head is for middle school.
In all honesty I was curious what the big fuss was about. So I broached the topic. I wanted to know what was the appeal, how painful it was, what lube to use, and before I knew it curiosity got the best of me and there was a dick in my ass. Well it wasn't so abrupt. In fact we tried a few times before I let it go all the way in there. I must say I am not a fan. But I did my homework.
I searched the internet, consulted gay guys, I even tried it on myself a few times. That's right I fucked myself in the ass. I got this toy online and some lube.I used my vibrator and then used this anal glass toy. I must say my orgasm was awesome so I thought I was ready. On the first night of the anal I took the proper precautions and cleaned myself out. My biggest fear was him having shitties on his penis after poking me. He started out so sweet and gentle. He went down on me for like 30 mins and I came. Then he turned me over and he stuck his tongue down there. HOLY SHIT! I was not expecting that by any means. He licked and kissed my asshole and I guess its call rimming. I never felt anything like that in my life. I almost cried because I was embarrassed and shocked and felt terrible that his tongue had gone somewhere only thermometers, soap, toilet paper and wash clothes have gone. He then introduced his finger and then came some lube. I was so wet he slide his cock in my vagina and fucked me for a little bit with his finger in my ass. I was so disgusted in myself but it felt really good. I came sooo heavy. I questioned myself wondering why hadn't I discovered this earlier. So after I was all relaxed he told me he was going to try and put his dick in there. My asshole winced in fear. He put tons of lube on me and tried to enter but I was not budging. It hurt so bad and he finally got the tip in.
He tried to put it all the way in and I started crying. I was so upset with myself, I felt I let him down. He told me we didn't have to ever try it again but I wanted to, so for the next few days we tried again and again each time he got a little bit more in. I was like I think I can, I think I can. About a week later we had reached full penetration, he was in there, fucking me, it hurt. I cried but I wanted him to enjoy it since he has worked so hard. It felt like I had to take a dumb. I was not enjoying myself while I was biting my pillow and taking in the ass like a prison bitch. He didn't come, he stopped after a few minutes and turned me around. He apologized, for what I don't know. He kissed me on forehead and got out of bed and made me some tea. I apologized, I felt nasty, I wanted to take a shower. He joined me and we washed each other and fucked in the shower old fashion style.
The next day I had gas like it was nobody's business. Holy shit. It was like someone was playing the frenchhorn in my ass. I was tooting all day, all that air in there. I was sore and uncomfortable like there was now a void in my ass.
We broke up just a few weeks ago. It wasn't emotional at all. It was quite silly. It came down to drugs. Drugs was infringing on my sex life. If he smoked before I came over he could barely get hard, I didn't have time for this limp dick bullshit. I am the joint you should be smoking. Fuck the weed and the alcohol, grow up. I felt ashamed of myself because I was scolding him like a child. It wasn't fair to him, I had no right and it was also a sign that I was caring too much. I cared too much for a person that I could never have a serious relationship with. So we cut our loses before it got too serious.
I am back in the game now.